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  <title>my baby&apos;s in the white fluffy clouds</title>
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  <title>Magic, travel, and community? or something? I don&apos;t know</title>
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  <description>I&amp;nbsp;spent this past weekend at a Magic tournament called &amp;quot;Cardmaggedon&amp;quot; which was... much smaller than expected, but that meant I won $150 despite not doing super well, so, hooray? I&apos;ve gone to big tournaments a few times in the last couple of months (one in LA, one in Oakland, and this one in Las Vegas) and the LA trip I took with a group of friends and the other two I was supposed to end up with friends but ended up alone. Not totally alone --- a friend from outside Magic happened to be at the first day of the Oakland event and that was great, and people I&amp;nbsp;know but don&apos;t consider (close?) friends from Tucson were in Vegas --- but pretty much &amp;quot;done playing cards, walk/transit back to place I am staying, order food, read more about magic&amp;quot; alone. This kind of sucks, as raxes are extroverts and really like having people around for that kind of recharge time. But I would do it again. (And, in fact, am doing it again in Denver in less than three weeks.)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I really enjoy games --- you know this if you&apos;ve known me for any period of time. I particularly like this game, in its many formats and its different types of skilltesting and its pushing my collector/accumulator/sorter buttons. I have strong mixed feelings about travel. I would have expected that I would not be about all of the travel required to play in big Magic tournaments very often. I... think I&amp;nbsp;actually am? It&apos;s tricky, because the people I&amp;nbsp;have to travel with are mostly acquaintances who I may like rather a lot but have no idea how to interact with --- they have very different social norms and expectations from me, and while we&apos;re on a team together, they&apos;ve all been friends for a long time and they&apos;re all guys and probably it&apos;s as hard for them to figure out how to interact with me as it is for me with them. We&apos;re not close enough at this point that I&apos;m invited to share rides or hotel rooms (I&apos;ve offered, but been declined) --- so I&apos;m mostly on my own for that. [0]&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Something else I&apos;ve noticed about this is that when I go and play or judge card game tournaments for a while I&amp;nbsp;drop everything else on the floor because it is just less important. I send some &amp;lt;3 texts or IMs or something to my partners and might have a lazy conversation in the evening or something, but unlike most of my travel, I&apos;m not staring at work email, I&apos;m not trying to get a bunch of other things done, I&amp;nbsp;am engaged and deeply focused in a way that is really rewarding and makes me want to do more of it. So even with all of the downsides I described up there I&apos;m kind of tempted to structure my life to involve more going to these tournaments and trying to get better at this game, in combination with the Pokemon judging I already do (which is also increasing in intensity both in terms of how much of it I&amp;nbsp;am doing and how much I am enjoying it/engaged by it). How bad of an idea is this? &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;(ps this is posted on Christmas morning because I&amp;nbsp;had all but a couple of sentences done and I&amp;nbsp;am waiting for a server install to finish, not because this is _particularly_ on my mind today, but because I&amp;nbsp;am starting to stretch out for my end-of-year-email --- it&apos;s going to be a long one this year, y&apos;all.)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;[0]&amp;nbsp;I&amp;nbsp;do have the friend I&amp;nbsp;keep trying to go to these events with, but we&apos;re obviously cursed as this time she had to say &amp;quot;I&amp;nbsp;can&apos;t come play Magic because my mother is in a coma&amp;quot; (her mother is out of the coma now hooray!); I also have some friends locally who are totally down to come to one or two events a year with me but uh. I would use up my one or two events a year in a month at the pace I want to be going. :P&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;img src=&quot;https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=rax&amp;ditemid=135869&quot; width=&quot;30&quot; height=&quot;12&quot; alt=&quot;comment count unavailable&quot; style=&quot;vertical-align: middle;&quot;/&gt; comments</description>
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  <category>the self as text</category>
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