I wrote this from a place of frustration and upset at being forced to chose between friends for a second time. I am not able to selectively disable empathy, and being given a choice between you or X, what I wanted was to abstain... but your post makes it clear that isn't an available option. This upset me a great deal for a long list of reasons; some of which I stupidly tried (and miserably failed) to summarize above. This was neither the time nor the place, if ever there was one, for such a discussion. I've been thinking about this post ever since I wrote it, and kicking myself for being stupid enough to convince myself these words were at all meaningful in the first place.
I fucked up, and for that I sincerely apologize.
I expect nor deserve your sympathy or response, but felt it important to share my feelings with you regardless.
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I wrote this from a place of frustration and upset at being forced to chose between friends for a second time. I am not able to selectively disable empathy, and being given a choice between you or X, what I wanted was to abstain... but your post makes it clear that isn't an available option. This upset me a great deal for a long list of reasons; some of which I stupidly tried (and miserably failed) to summarize above. This was neither the time nor the place, if ever there was one, for such a discussion. I've been thinking about this post ever since I wrote it, and kicking myself for being stupid enough to convince myself these words were at all meaningful in the first place.
I fucked up, and for that I sincerely apologize.
I expect nor deserve your sympathy or response, but felt it important to share my feelings with you regardless.