You are right; I never should have written what I wrote. It was a terrible attempt at making a point I ended up barely flirting with and was completely without consideration for Rax's feelings.

The reason I responded to phi the way I did was because I realize my words have effectively struck a bee hive, and there is no way I can undo that damage with more words. I have to accept that I have done this damage and there is nothing more I can do but apologize for it.