http://identityfail.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] identityfail.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] rax 2011-07-29 03:24 am (UTC)

ohmygod, "the f on my license stands for fuck you" is maybe the best thing i've ever read. <3 <3 <3

but yeah gender is silly and difficult and blahblahblah.

ALSO LOLOLOLOLOL MRS. DILLON. (sorry :/) i think it's probably easier as a dude-ish person, because "mr." feels so much less loaded than any of mrs/ms/miss, but maybe that's just for me? or maybe oh god what if i am just male-ish-identified cuz male is the ~default~ and therefore feels more neutral? patriarchy makes gender so much more confusing than it already would be! in so many ways. :( fuck that shit.

also, when people ask me my pronouns i almost always say "he or they" which i feel weird about because it's like, i'm supposed to make the decision? not you? like you don't get to choose my gender, *i* do. but at the same time i am quite certain that those are the pronouns i like well enough--i don't want to be "she" and i don't want to be ze or ey so like i shouldn't feel guilty about saying "he or they" when like YES IT IS TRUE, THEY ARE BOTH COMFORTABLE AND GOOD (ENOUGH).

but yeah i could never operate as nonbinary-IDed on a day-to-day basis, it would just be too stressful and difficult. as you say, the effort threshhold (which spellcheck wants me to spell with only one 'h'??) is too high. *shrug*

if pressed, i wouldn't identify my gender as "other" so much as i would identify it as "irrelevant" (which is why i heart the way "they" functions as a gender-inclusive rather than gender-neutral pronoun) ... so while my like, screechy/reactionary GENDER DOESNT MATTER IT DOESNT IT DOESNT IT DOESNT reaction has gone down considerably since i stopped being a girl (thank god), it's still definitely a thing i feel / am not quite sure what to do with.

ho-hum.

probably none of that helped or was useful for me to say. also not super articulate cuz i'm tired and too lazy to edit. oh well!

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