I feel like this, while being radically different in many (most?) ways, overlaps in some significant sense with my own processes.
When I developed monstrosity, it wasn't a defensive move or a re-construction, but it felt like something I needed to have in order to be whole. In a way it was like a protective charm against forces, both internal and external, that would surpress emotion and reverie.
I love as a human does only in that these are ways a human can love and is loving.
That seems like an important distinction to make. It's human, but maybe not the associated memetic baggage around "human".
Being around other sexually weird people helped me realize that those "ways a human can love" existed, too. And that it was OK to pursue them, no really, because there are people who're making it work. When I look at the various kink communities, they all seem kind of ridiculous, but at the same time there's a comfort in that, that other people are doing ridiculous things (and it's not like the forms of sexuality that aren't considered kink didn't look ridiculous, either).
I hadn't thought of furry as a means of boundary assertion before, but it makes sense. I think being in-character makes it easier to be assertive for a lot of people; for sure it's simpler!
When I look at art of myself "as a furry," I am using an intermediary to see the self I cannot see in the mirror or in photographs; the human eye, the camera, are not suitable intermediaries for viewing me.
So many feels. <3 I've been mulling over a few different images that I might commission someday, if I find the right artist or artists.
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Date: 2013-09-04 07:09 am (UTC)When I developed monstrosity, it wasn't a defensive move or a re-construction, but it felt like something I needed to have in order to be whole. In a way it was like a protective charm against forces, both internal and external, that would surpress emotion and reverie.
I love as a human does only in that these are ways a human can love and is loving.
That seems like an important distinction to make. It's human, but maybe not the associated memetic baggage around "human".
Being around other sexually weird people helped me realize that those "ways a human can love" existed, too. And that it was OK to pursue them, no really, because there are people who're making it work. When I look at the various kink communities, they all seem kind of ridiculous, but at the same time there's a comfort in that, that other people are doing ridiculous things (and it's not like the forms of sexuality that aren't considered kink didn't look ridiculous, either).
I hadn't thought of furry as a means of boundary assertion before, but it makes sense. I think being in-character makes it easier to be assertive for a lot of people; for sure it's simpler!
When I look at art of myself "as a furry," I am using an intermediary to see the self I cannot see in the mirror or in photographs; the human eye, the camera, are not suitable intermediaries for viewing me.
So many feels. <3 I've been mulling over a few different images that I might commission someday, if I find the right artist or artists.