Multi Bechdel

Dec. 29th, 2025 02:06 pm
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Rogan: After making my silly Bechdel in Bookshelf post, I found myself thinking about other variations. I also found myself thinking about how community is shown in fiction.

 

Loonybrain email down

Dec. 29th, 2025 07:26 am
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Due to switching webhosts for healthymultiplicity.com, our email is down and probably has been since Christmas. We are working on getting it up and going again.

Until then, if you have our phone number or the old email for the Greenough Hall MSTers Club, you can contact us through those. Sorry for the inconvenience; among its many failings, the old webhost has given me no sign of whether the emails I sent in the past week went out or not; on my end, it’s been acting buggily normal, and I’m having to guess it no longer works purely because nothing has come in for so long.

vital functions

Dec. 28th, 2025 10:35 pm
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Reading. Me, a few days ago:

... I picked up the bad and naughty book I'm not supposed to read after 8pm because it's too annoying It was annoying

So that's how The Story of Pain (Joanna Bourke) is going. Read more... )

I have also made a tiny bit more progress on Index, A History of the (Dennis Duncan), read one and a half magazines sent to me by Organisations Various that I feel bad recycling unread but which have a tendency to Accumulate in that state, and some of a Libby sample of Cloistered (Catherine Coldstream) based on one of you mentioning it mid-November, which I have just about got up to on my reading page. Also, I am up to mid-November on my reading page.

Added to the queue are Vespertine (Margaret Rogerson; courtesy of someone mentioning it a while back, probably [personal profile] skygiants, and my library Acquiring A New Copy), The Long Journey of English (Peter Trudgill; a present from my mother, in her capacity as a linguist), and Terry Pratchett: A Life With Footnotes (Rob Wilkins; a loan from my father). For the sake of my spreadsheet of books (with the increasingly inaccurate filename books-2011.ods) I am probably going to be trying to finish rather than start things for the rest of the calendar year (not the Bourke) but we'll see how that goes.

Listening. ... an episode of Elementary that a relative was watching...

Playing. Scrabble! Monument Valley 3. Inkulinati (having another go at beating my head against a run at Master difficulty).

Cooking. Another batch of the quince and squash stew. Two days' worth of minestrone (with bulgur wheat because we are apparently out of tiny pasta, but not that), which worked well as Some Lunches. I think little else of note.

Eating. So much of my mother's cooking various, including a few last tomatoes from her greenhouse (!!!). Also my father's mince pies.

Exploring. Several stonks around Cambridge, including visits to some little free libraries and to various likely locations for snowdrops (mainly the grounds of Churchill, up at the chapel end, where they do indeed exist). Brief trip to Anglesey Abbey, which also has snowdrops coming out and one very enthusiastic daffodil; winter garden remains lovely.

Growing. The pineapple leafs are taller than the (remaining, trimmed) originals, as of... two weeks ago? Ten days? But I think I hadn't yet mentioned and it's still making me smile.

There is one (1) curry leaf cutting that is Not Yet Dead.

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I spent so much of Boxing Day curled on the couch with my books, I failed to notice it was snowing until well after dark when it glittered down through the streetlight in one of those soundstage tinsel veils. One of my goals for this afternoon was to get out into its Arctic wonderland, whose streets were spidered with ice and drift-blue with chemical salt instead of glacial age. I walked further than I had intended and had to come back across the snow of the imaginatively designated Veterans Memorial Park between the iron freeze of the Mystic River and the less elemental red lights of Route 16.

Look quick, is that something you missed? )

I have been sick for so long, I feel that I have once again come unplugged from any of the places where I live. I don't know that I will be any less sick in the immediately foreseeable future, but I have to try to socket myself back into these streets, this light, the inside of my own head. I remain so tired the latter feels emptier than I would like, but at least I am trying not to punt every idea that crosses it as pointlessly exhausting. In the meantime I am enjoying Eerie East Anglia: Fearful Tales of Field and Fen (ed. Edward Parnell, 2024) and Russell Hoban's The Bat Tattoo (2002).
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I am now noticing that it is in fact Fairly Consistent that I can Do More in terms of Pilates if I'm doing it at a rate of Two Full Sessions A Week rather than three. I am Somewhat Dismayed at now needing to go "okay, this clearly means I'm not fully recovering doing what I'm currently doing at a rate of every other day-ish, which means I will derive more benefit if I do less of the activity"; I am trying to cheer myself up by persuading myself that what it Actually Means that I get to play with a greater variety of Colouring Things In on The Sticker Chart.

I am amused that I am about as Oh No This Is Terrible about Officially Reducing My Mat Time as I am about getting onto the mat. Brains. Brains!

Romanticising the Old Internet

Dec. 27th, 2025 01:29 pm
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So, I started using the internet around 1995 ish. And there is a lot I love about it and a lot that was extremely difficult. But many people now will look back and see it as some perfect idyllic time of free information exchange, as though there was nothing wrong with it and that's... simply not true.

Now, there is a lot I like about the old internet, don't get me wrong. I like that capitalism hadn't got it's claws into it, and the lack of centralized services made people forced to carve out a place for their own. But it had.. so many hurdles and was so inaccessible in a lot of ways. So, here's a bunch of things that irritated me about the internet in 1995-2005 that I think is, in-fact, a lot better now. I'm gonna babble about my own experiences with this era to give an idea for those that didn't experience this.

Technology


The truth about the internet is that to use it, it is in conversation with the technology you use. Want to digitize your art? That's gonna cost you a 1400$ scanner and a SCISI card. Want to draw on the computer directly? Well you better hope you know someone in the AutoCAD industry to hook you up with an Intuos tablet and that you have a free serial port to use it. Or wait a few years and get one of the USB ones. (Also likely setting you back a few thousand dollars) For people that didn't grow up in this era, they have no idea how incredible it was to see drawing tablets in any sort of tech shop, this used to be a direct order specialty shop sort of deal.

And then there's the computer that runs it all that you use to access the internet in the first place. Putting together a computer was more of a hassle then, than it is now. I'm sure people that didn't grow up with it find it confusing now, but back then? There were way more points of failure and chance for incompatibility between boards, CPU, and RAM. Now, you just have to make sure the motherboard's socket matches the CPU and maybe the voltage in a few higher end cases. The RAM and GPU are pretty much plug and play with the only setback being possibly throttled by the board if the board isn't strong enough, but at least the computer will work. For older systems, a mismatch like that could cause it to not even start.

And then the SCISI card... oh the SCISI card. It's an expensive piece of hardware that was terribly finicky. I had to write a BASH script to stop something related to the Scanner from initializing so that I could actually boot into windows without safe mode because it'd fail every time otherwise. Little errors on devices these days pale in comparison to the catastrophic failures hardware from 1995-2005 were capable of.

After 2005, USB was more ubiquitous, scanners were both affordable and easier to use, and computers were easier to build and troubleshoot.

Software


I don't know how many people even in their 30's really appreciates the breadth of software we have accessible to us now. When I was getting into this, there was Photoshop, PaintShop Pro, the extremely rudimentary OS-provided imaging programs. Both Photoshop and PaintShopPro would set you back a couple hundred dollars. I will say the upside to this era was the copy protection wasn't nearly as extreme. You could get away with burning a disc and pass around the same key and get it installed on all your friend's computers without issue. GIMP entered the scene around 1998, but access to it was pretty much only for the especially tech savy that could compile their own version for their OS, or for those on an OS that was supported by others. But if you think GIMP was limited now, it was more limited, then. And while technically Pixia was around, unless you were at least somewhat familiar with Japanese, you were unlikely to be aware of the software, let alone be able to use it, but if you could it was one of the few free options that real. I am of the opinion the existence of Pixia in 1998, is why the digital art scene in Japan was so big.

openCanvas released in 2000, and became wildly popular for it's networking and overall nicer brush controls. Paint.Net hit the scene in 2004, followed by Mypaint in 2005, Krita in 2005. So as you can see, options were pretty thin until the end of this era. Now a days, there are a wealth of both free and affordable applications for anyone can use and I feel like this gets taken for granted far too often.

The Internet Itself


In the internet around 1995-2005, the options you had for sharing your art were... slim. After you got past the hurdle of technology and software to even make the art in digital form to begin with, the places where you could share and host it was minimal. You could.. build a website (which many did), post to a forum (which still often required that you have that art uploaded somewhere first, in order to even show it because many 'forums' did not have direct uploads), or be good with IRC and it's file transfer. (I did not use IRC). But your options were limited and required some amount of technical skill, and if you didn't have those technical skills, well.. your options were more thin. I'm going to list a timeline of what was available, and maybe you'll see what I mean. (I can only speak for the English side of things, I'm afraid)

Newgrounds 1995, Okay so technically this site itself pre-dates the others but it started out as only a collection of Flash works and they had to be manually submitted and uploaded to the service. Art wasn't openly accepted until about 2000 and accounts didn't happen until about 2001 but art submissions were still directly sent. Direct uploads for art to Newgrounds itself didn't happen until 2010. (from what I've been able to garner from a cursory glance on web archive, because FOR SOME REASON, THERE IS NO HISTORY OF NEWGROUNDS ON FANLORE.ORG)
Elfwood 1996, a gallery that was high-fantasy-only and then kinda branched out into scifi later, was jurried, (in other words every submission was reviewed) and required the disclosure of your legal name in order to make an account. They didn't allow fanart until 2002 (my guess was the advent of DeviantArt pulled a lot of their Traffic)
Epilogue.net 1998, A competitor to Elfwood in that it was even more strict on what it accepted because it only wanted 'the best' art.
MediaMiner 1998, This was first a fan fiction service and then later added a fanart gallery. It was so much easier to use than Elfwood that it was such a big deal to me at the time.
Side 7 1998, a fan BBS turned art gallery, that I only knew as a Sonic Fan Art gallery so I never used it.
VCL 1999, A very rudimentary gallery site for furry art. No comments, but made for a nice archive. But only furry art.

DeviantArt 2000, Unless you were on the net at this time, it's difficult for me to describe just what a Big Deal DeviantArt was. Up until this point the galleries most people had access to were restricted in some way either by access or subject. (as you can see from the list above) DeviantArt was the first multi-media gallery site that you could just make an account and directly upload to. Every other site before it was Juried, had strict restrictions on subjects, were cumbersome to use, or lacked a feature here and there. DeviantArt had ALL the features, NO subject restriction, and was a place that Writers, Photographers, Sculptors, Designers, Crafters, and genuinely any medium that could be artistic. (There was an absence of music but that's because of some weirdness with the other project DA had going which honestly is a shame.) Many of these niches had NO WHERE to share their work before this as so many curated art services were only Illustrations or Fiction. Photographers, Crafters, Interface designers, were all forgotten.

And then, SELLING stuff? Well, there were no easy plug and play merchant services until PayPal hit the scene in 2002, and even then it was feature limited compared to today. Before that you had to apply for a merchant service, I don't know if you've ever done that but it's a pain. And the cart services they had available at the time? Absolutely jank. To make your own store you had to pay for hosting, set up your own cart, purchase an SSL cert (most services didn't offer free ones at the time), pay for the merchant service, and then have the technical skill to keep it all running. And of you wanted someone to do all that for you. And hey if you wanted to do it on the cheap, you could take credit cards over the phone or have people mail you checks. A surprising amount of people did both these things. You have no idea how PayPal's embedded purchase buttons changed the scene unless you were deep in the weeds of everything else, but that wasn't until near the end of that 10-year span. Self-service sales platforms like Etsy didn't exist until 2005.

And then, use of assets without attribution was rampant between 1995-2005. There was a whole movement in 1998 to protest this problem called Grey Day, where artists would collectively change their site to remove all graphics from the site to show what it would be like if they all stopped making what they do. The only request was attribution. There's def still an issue with use without attribution but image search makes it a lot easier to find the source. That didn't exist in 1995-2005.
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These days, people take for granted the ease of access. Coding a website now is easier than it ever has been, even side-stepping the fact that there are very few WYSIWYG options, there are still free CMS and the code itself is easier to understand than it used to be and I say this as someone that's always struggled with code. There are more options to set your roots down, you have more control over where you want to go. Hosting is incredibly cheap, as are domains, nothing is stopping you from making your own house and that used to be much more difficult in 1995-2005.

It's easier to build a PC than it used to be, there are videos with guides, archives of drivers, and a whole bustling community of alternative OS options with more users dedicated to making drivers for those OS than there ever used to be in decade I'm referring to. And we are spoiled for choice for both software and hardware. 3 viable competing tablet companies! Making stuff that won't knock out your entire paycheck!
Even with the way things are now, with the content restrictions and age verification, we've been through this before. There was a whole era of Credit Card Verification, and that crashed and burned as well. Of course, that doesn't mean it doesn't require us to fight for it :U As difficult as some things are, turmoil is important for lasting change, but you gotta do something about it. It sucks right now, but I know I for one am determined to make sure the now isn't permanent.

The internet has never been a perfect place for anyone. There are some aspects that had their heyday were great and better than some of what's going on right now, without a doubt, but like everything, once capitalism sinks its claws in, it dies.

IDK I think it's better to learn to the past than yearn for it. Romanticing the past doesn't help our current or our future, it prevents us from learning from our mistakes.

[embodiment] ... huh.

Dec. 26th, 2025 11:50 pm
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My mother has today loaned me some knee-high compression socks in a fun design and... the amount of presyncope I've been getting on standing up from squatting is approximately None, despite feeling while squatting like It's Gonna Be A Bad One When I Stand Up. So I'm probably going to be buying myself more of them as my mother's present to me for this winterval.

Obviously I was delighted when I got to page 7 and found the rainbow...

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In the afternoon there was eggnog, in the evening there was roast beef, and after dinner with my parents and my husbands and [personal profile] nineweaving, there was plum pudding with an extremely suitable amount of brandy on fire.



At the end of a battering year, it was a small and a nice Christmas. There was thin frozen snow on the ground. In addition to the traditional and necessary socks and a joint gift with [personal profile] spatch of wooden kitchen utensils to replace our archaically cracked spoons, I seem to have ended up with a considerable stack of books including Robert Macfarlane's Ghostways: Two Journeys in Unquiet Places (2020), Monique Roffey's The Mermaid of Black Conch (2020), and the third edition of Oakes Plimpton's Robbins Farm Park, Arlington, Massachusetts: A Local History from the Revolutionary War to the Present (1995/2007) with addenda as late as 2014 pasted into the endpapers by hand, a partly oral history I'd had no idea anyone had ever conducted of a place I have known for sledding and star-watching and the setting off of model rockets since childhood. The moon was a ice-white crescent at 18 °F. After everything, as we were driving home, I saw the unmistakable flare of a shooting star to the northwest, a stray shot of the Ursids perhaps after all.
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How did it get to be Christmas Eve? Are we sure? This year has been hard to believe in. I fell asleep in front of the decorated tree. Merry Erev Christmas.

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... which meant I thought it was very funny when later said afternoon I became aware that there's ongoing scrutiny of their operations from the Business and Trade Committee (first link I could find, it's bedtime). Also very funny that the time from name change to shed legacy of being Awful to Nah You're Still Awful was approximately -5, on a more national scale than I'd previously clocked...

DROWN ME IN LADY BOOKS, pt. 1

Dec. 24th, 2025 08:18 am
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Mori: I done got my periodic need for books about queer ladies, so I have been wallowing in lady books. Here’s what I read!

queers and ladies from 1980s-1990s )

And now I feel a craving to make a lady zine. I BELIEVE IN ME!
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It is still sleeting more than snowing here, but it sticks in the occasional patch of shadow. Farther from the water, it's frosting up like winter. The Ursids were washed out by this year's weather, but somewhere beyond the clouds they are still streaking light.

I spent a remarkable portion of this day having conversations related to employment, but one of them was a thorough delight. I hadn't known about the practical, ritual links of the Jewish Association for Death Education.

We lit the candle for my grandfather's yahrzeit, our ghost story for Christmas Eve.

[embodiment] huh

Dec. 23rd, 2025 11:03 pm
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Slightly to my surprise, earlier today I got a text from my GP saying approximately "yes your serum ferritin is now 'normal', but also, uh, by this we mean '15, with a reference range of 13-150, after six weeks of supplements', so... keep taking the supplements and we'll retest in six weeks!!!"

It is possible that the reason this actually got flagged at all was in fact that I've got a slightly elevated white cell count, and had I just had normal serum ferritin I'd have had to submit the "uhhh sooooo..." eConsult. Which I'd been gearing up to do, because the serum ferritin result showed up in the NHS app sooner than anything else!

Unfortunately, I had been working myself up to mentioning some Possible Additional Signs Of Concern in said eConsult (the various unimportant bleeding, like "there is usually old blood when I blow my nose BUT/AND I am very much using a steroid nasal spray every day") and I now have a solid excuse to keep putting it off for another six weeks, but hey. No longer officially anaemic! Pity about what's going to happen when I run out of supplementary iron, huh!

Search Engine Sources

Dec. 22nd, 2025 09:24 pm
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I don't think many people are aware of just how many search engines pull from the same ones.

https://www.searchenginemap.com/

Even ones people speak highly of, such as Kagi, still get their sources from the larger services.

The upside is that this has now taught me about Mojeek and Yep, which I had never heard of before.

And https://metasearx.com/ looks to be like a modern version of Dogpile (if you all remember that one)

I hope this little map/product updates more, I feel like there has GOT to be other ones to put on there, both in the form of the niche ones like https://marginalia-search.com/ and non-english speaking search engines.

Edit:
[personal profile] aflatmirror linked me to this fantastic article that was published in 2021 but has been kept up to date as July of this year.
https://seirdy.one/posts/2021/03/10/search-engines-with-own-indexes/
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Since the light is officially supposed to have returned in my hemisphere, it is pleasing that my morning has been filled with the quartz-flood of winter sun. I could not get any kind of identifying look at the weird ducks clustered on their mirror-blue thread of the Mystic as I drove past, but I saw black, blue, buff, white, russet, green, and one upturned tail with traffic-cone feet.

On the front of ghost stories for winter, Afterlives: The Year's Best Death Fiction 2024, edited by Sheree Renée Thomas, is now digitally available from Psychopomp. Nephthys of the kite-winged darkness presides over its contents, which include my queer maritime ice-dream "Twice Every Day Returning." It's free to subscribers of The Deadlands and worth a coin or two on the eyes of the rest.

For the solstice itself, I finally managed to write about a short and even seasonal film-object and made latkes with my parents. [personal profile] spatch and I lit the last night's candle for the future. All these last months have been a very rough turn toward winter. I have to believe that I will be able to believe in one.

The Multi History Box!

Dec. 21st, 2025 10:58 pm
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Sneak: I have discovered ultimate power!

Now that I have FoxitReader working on the new computer, I have regained the ability to print insta-zines out of any fancy academic articles I want! (Just as long as they're ~52 pages or less.) We have been sorting the periodicals at the sci-fi library, and we decided to snag an empty box because it was the perfect size for our bookshelf, and also many of those boxes are empty, dusty, sad, and unloved.

And then I had a great idea. @_@ What if it became our multi library box?

A bunch of the very old multi articles we have (and some of the new ones) are from magazines or 600+ page tomes with names like Transactions of the Royal Edinburgh Society, which include a gazillion articles by a gazillion people on all sorts of topics. (The Royal Edinburgh Society one not only has an early 1823 "dual personality" case, but articles on a plant fossil found in a quarry, milk of magnesia, and math.) Obviously, we aren't interested in, like, 580+ of those pages. But thanks to my trusty printer and FoxitReader, I can print out just the articles that matter to us, date them, annotate them, and put them in the periodicals box in chronological order for easy reference!

I now have seven historical articles printed:
  • Papierfliegerfalter's translation of a 1791 German medical multi case: Gmelin, E. (1791). Materialen fur die anthropologie (pp. 3-89). Tubingen, Germany: Cotta. (The original German case is already online and screenreadable at GoogleBooks.)
    • Maybe now that we have it on paper, we will FINALLY read this!
  • Plumer, W. (1859). Mary Reynolds: A Case of Double ConsciousnessHarper Magazine No. CXX, Vol. XX (May 1860).
    • A case about the lady often credited as "the first multiple," even though there's no such thing. She switched between two folks for years, and settled into one permanently after a while.
  • Dewar, H. (1822). Report on a Communication from Dr [sic] Dyce of Aberdeen, to the Royal Society of Edinburgh, "Oh Uterine Irritation, and its Effects on the Female Constitution." Transactions of the Royal Society of Edinburgh, vol. XI. Edinburgh: William & Charles Tait.
    • Early "double personality" case involving a teenage girl who'd sleepwalk/sleeptalk/go into trance and whose "sleep" memory and "waking" memories were kept completely separate from each other. This paper was listed under the mistaken titles of "Double Personality," and "Report on a Communication from Dr. Dyce of Aberdeen" in Goettman and Greaves' gigantic 1991 multi bibilography.
  • Carlson, N. (2011). Searching for Catherine Auger: The Forgotten Wife of the Wîhtikôw (Windigo). in Sarah Carter (Ed.) Recollecting: Lives of Aboriginal Women of the Canadian Northwest and Borderlands. Edmonton: AU Press.
    • The story of the wife of Napanin/Felix Augur witiko, who in Alberta in 1897 "went witiko," became overwhelmingly compelled to devour his wife and children, and begged to be killed so he wouldn't do so. The local medicine man did so.
  • Schmidt, L. E. (2010) Chapter Six: One Religio-Sexual Maniac. Heaven's Bride: the Unprintable Life of Ida C. Craddock, American Mystic, Scholar, Sexologist, Martyr, and Madwoman. New York: Basic Books.
    • Ida Craddock married an angel in the 1890s and got harrased to death for it in 1902. The chapter title comes from Schmidt tearing down...
  • Schroder, T. (1936). One Religio-Sexual ManiacThe Psychoanalytic Review, 23(1).
    • More of Craddock.
  • B.C.A./Nellie Parson Bean. (1909). My Life as a Dissociated Personality. Boston: Gorham Press.
    • earliest medical multi autobiography we know about.
  • Also Fox and Ara of Team Meg-John Barker's Plural Tarot Companion from 2025 because I think it's neat. :) (Their Plural Tarot is here!)
I had to stop because I ran out of toner (we were already low) but they all make for very small little zines! Still plenty of room in that box.

I had to stop because I ran out of toner (we were already low) but they all make for very small little zines! Still plenty of room in that box.
Still to-print:
  • Mitchell, S. W. (1889). Mary Reynolds: A Case of Double Consciousness. Philadelphia: Wm. J. Dornan. Not to be confused with the Plumer article with the same title!
  • the Anna Winsor/Old Stump case from 1889 (because that case was so hard to find, I never want to lose it again, augh)
  • This article on Alma Z. from 1893!
  • Cutten's two 1903 articles on John Kinsel, the guy who his whole college dorm knew about and they took to spanking him with textbooks to make him switch.
  • The Doris Fischer case from 1916 (turns out we had it buried in our bummer files!)
  • Brandsma's 1974 article about Jonah, just because finding ANY record of black male medical multiples is rare and terrible!
  • Everything else I can find that we keep having reference!
We can annotate terms in use... ideas of personhood... theories of cause... so many opportunities, guys! @_@

'Tis the season...

Dec. 21st, 2025 07:11 pm
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A soft, chill wind blowing.
Snowflakes dancing on the breeze.
Light scattered into rainbows.
Dreams of children sing.
Hope sparks in the darkness.
Turning the seasons,
Holidays embrace love.

vital functions

Dec. 21st, 2025 10:49 pm
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Reading. Nothing (quite) finished; various snippets. Scalzi, Bourke, Boddice, Cowart )

Watching. Wake Up Dead Man (the third instalment in the Benoit Blanc/Knives Out mysteries). Read more... )

Three episodes of Man vs. Bee, in company; this is... not for me.

Playing. Inkulinati! And, with the niblings: Match Madness, The Genius Square, Rummikub, Dixit.

Cooking. A new-to-me fruitcake recipe from one of my cookbooks; a dal from the cookbook I am not actually going to manage Making Everything From by the end of the calendar year (but I am pretty close).

Eating. I have now had A Mince Pie. Also a very long lunch at the Gardeners Arms. The brownies that all the reviews of the place we wound up staying in Ardlingy mentioned (which were indeed v good).

Exploring. Wakehurst Place, both at night for Glow Wild and during daylight (a little)!

Growing. Bought curry leaves. Proceeded to strip most of the stems (freezing the leaves) and Treat As Cuttings. There's at least one of them that doesn't look actually dead yet...

Observing. OWL OWL OWL. Very talkative tawny, as we were leaving Wakehurst on Friday night. Snowdrops, also at Wakehurst, to my mild horror. And, blessedly, NOT The Charity Tractor Parade...

Can't I take my own binoculars out?

Dec. 21st, 2025 10:50 am
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The most disturbing part of A View from a Hill (2005) is the beauty of Fulnaker Abbey. From a dry slump of stones in a frost-crunched field, it soars in a flamboyance of turrets and spires, a dust-gilded nave whose frescoes have not glowed in the wan autumn sun, whose biscuit-colored fluting has not been touched since the dissolution of the monasteries. His customarily tight face equally transfigured, Dr. Fanshawe (Mark Letheren) turns in wonder through the rose windows of this archaeological resurrection, a ruin to the naked, post-war eye, through the antique field glasses which first showed him the distant, fogged, impossible prospect of its tower in a chill of hedgerows and mist, medievally alive. In a teleplay of sinister twig-snaps and the carrion-wheel of kites, it's a moment of golden, murmuring awe, centuries blown like dandelion clocks in a numinous blaze. It is a product of black magic only a little more grimily direct than most reconstructions of the past through a lens of bone and it would be far more comforting as a lie.

Visible in appropriate hindsight as the first in the irregular revival of A Ghost Story for Christmas (1971–78), A View from a Hill was adapted for the small screen by Peter Harness and faithfully preserves the antiquarian creep of its source M. R. James while remixing much of the detail around its central conceit, its adjustments of period and tweaks of class taking the story from an eerie sketch of the skull beneath English pastoral skin to an explicit meditation on the double edges of disinterring the past, specifically who decides what the transcendence of time is worth and who foots the bill. It can be mistaken for a purely material question. Aristocratically cash-strapped and as tone-deaf to transcendence as to manners, Squire Richards (Pip Torrens) would be the first to admit he's only called in an old school favor from the Fitzwilliam because his inheritance of antiquities might have something in it to bail out the stately crumbling home. "Never really my thing, standing in a field, grubbing about in the past. One wants to get oneself out there, don't you think? Get a bit of life." Fortunately for that piece of breathtaking tactlessness, Fanshawe came prepared to be condescended to, his archaeological credentials carefully organized to offset his grammar-school accents and implicitly junior standing, packed off to the countryside to investigate a miscellany of Crimean souvenirs and unremarkable Roman ware. He was not braced to discover a double of sorts in the amateur figure of F. D. Baxter (Simon Linnell), the village antiquary still remembered suspiciously for the macabre chime of his death with the obsessions which preceded it. "Fancied himself an archaeologist, like yourself . . . Used to be very bothered with ransacking and rummaging all the history of the place." To be classed with a half-educated watchmaker predictably flicks his defenses, but Fanshawe seems nevertheless to feel some sympathy for this ill-reputed character whose notes led unerringly to worthwhile finds—the kind of professional half-life he might have had to settle for himself, a pre-war stratified generation or two ago. Besides, Baxter was just as transfixed by that mysterious apparition of an abbey, judging from the beautiful, precisely drawn elevation that Fanshawe finds among his papers, complete in every corbel and tracery and dated to 1926 when the squire and the less eccentric evidence of his senses assure him that nothing remains but the cold little scatter of stones that he cycles out to inspect by the rime-glint of afternoon, looking as he paces the dimensions of its absence in his fallow windbreaker and the overcast of his own breath at once tougher and more contemplative, on his own ground for once instead of the back foot of his diligent, tiresome job. His fingers move over a half-buried, moss-crisped stone as if its lost architecture were held like amber within it. Even an inexplicable wave of panic after a puncture at the wooded top of the locally named Gallows Hill can't dim his fascination with the site and the brass-bound binoculars which seem to pierce time to show him more than any survey or excavation or illustration ever could, the past itself, not its denuded, disarticulated remains. Reflections from the Dead: An Archaeological Journey into the Dark Ages, reads the title of the manuscript he brought to edit in his spare time. He looked, too, through the eyes of that curious, earth-browned skull-mask that came, like the binoculars, out of Baxter's collection: "Some of it is pretty bizarre." Of course, there all his troubles began.

James reserves this fact for the punch line of "A View from a Hill" (1925), the ickily logical explanation for the optical disillusion by which placid scenery may become a deep-soaked site of violence. The teleplay drops it square in the middle of its 40 minutes, a night-flashed miniature of folk horror narrated by the aged, watchful manservant Patten (David Burke) with masterful suggestion. "My father served on the inquest. They returned a verdict of unsound mind." Frustrated with the human limits of fieldwork and too much alone with the tools of his trade, Baxter is locally averred to have taught himself as much necromancy as archaeology when he rendered the bones of the dead of Gallows Hill in order to paint the lenses of his field glasses into ghost-sight, an optical coating of the unlaid past. His rain-caped figure sketching on an autumnal hillside would be a study in the picturesque except for the feverish avidity of drawing a dead building from life, the success of his spectral optics which merely conceal the grisliness of their cruder predecessor, the freshly unearthed front of a skull. Harness does not have him cry as in the original story, "Do you want to look through a dead man's eyes?" but visualizes the line until we wonder even whether it accounts for the accuracy of the unexcavated sites left behind in his notes, a sort of ground-penetrating radar of the dead. Or he had a real feel for the tracks of time in the land, for all the good it eventually did him: "What," the squire greets the payoff with meta-modern skepticism, obviously not the target audience for antiquarian ghost stories, "the hanged men came for Baxter because they didn't like their bones being boiled?" Fanshawe for whose benefit this ghoulish moral was actually exhumed doesn't commit himself that far. "It's an interesting story." Relocating it complicates him as a protagonist, but not beyond what either Jamesian canon or extra-diegetic relevance will bear. By the time he brings the binoculars back to the sun-whitened field where the abbey waits under its accretion of centuries, he knows too much to be doing it. Not only has he heard the story of their ill-fated creation, he's seen the drawings that support it, even experienced a dreamlike encounter in the bathroom of all places where the water swirled as cloudily as leached bone and the face flickering like a bad film behind its skull's visor belonged to a pale and crow-picked Baxter. As if their stolen second sight were as much of a beacon as the torch he flashed wildly around in the restless dusk, Patten attributed his terrifying sense of woodland surveillance to his possession of "those glasses." It makes any idea of using them feel intolerably foolhardy of Fanshawe, but more importantly it makes him complicit. Despite its cadaverous viewing conditions, Fulnaker Abbey is not an inherently cursed or haunted space: its eeriness lies in its parallax of time, the reality of its stalls and tapers in the twelfth century as much as its weather-gnawed foundations in the twentieth in one of those simultaneities that so trouble the tranquil illusion of a present. To anyone with a care for the fragility of history, especially a keen and vulnerable medievalist like Fanshawe, its opening into the same three mundane dimensions as a contemporary church is a miracle. For the first time as it assembles itself through the resolving blur of the binoculars, we hear him laugh in unguarded delight. None of its consecrated grandeur is accessible without the desecration of much less sanctified bodies, the poachers and other criminals who fed the vanished gibbet of Gallows Hill and were planted thick around it as the trees that hid their graves over the years until a clever watchmaker decided that their peaceful rest mattered less than the knowledge that could be extracted from their decayed state. It happened to generate a haunting—a pocket timeslip constructed without the consent of the dead who would power it, everyone's just lucky they stayed quiescent until attracted by the use of the device again—but it would not have been less exploitative had Baxter done his grave-robbing and corpse-boiling with supernatural impunity. No matter how gorgeous the temporally split vision from which Fanshawe begins to draft his own interior views, it's a validation of that gruesome disrespect and it's no wonder the dead lose no time doing him the same honors as the man who bound them to enable it.

Directed by Luke Watson for BBC Four, A View from a Hill is inevitably its own artifact of past time. The crucial, permeable landscape—Herefordshire in the original, the BBC could afford the Thames Valley—is capably photographed at a time of year that does most of its own desaturation and DP Chris Goodger takes visible care to work with the uncanniness of absence and daylight, but the prevalence of handheld fast cutting risks the conscious homage of the mood and the digital texture is slicker than 16 mm even without the stuttering crash zoom that ends in a superfluous jump scare; it does better with small reminders of disquiet like a red kite hovering for something to scavenge or the sketch of a burial that looks like a dance macabre. The score by Andy Price and Harry Escott comes out at moments of thinned time and otherwise leaves the soundscape to the cries and rustles of the natural world and the dry hollow of breath that denotes the presence of the dead. Fulnaker Abbey was confected from select views of the neo-Gothic St Michael's in Farnborough and Fanshawe's doctoral thesis sampled ironically from a passage of Philip Rahtz: The gravestones are indeed documents in stone, and we do not need to excavate them, except perhaps to uncover parts of the inscription that have become overgrown or buried . . . As a three-and-a-half-hander, the teleplay shines. Letheren's mix of prickliness and earnestness makes him an effective and unusual anchor for its warning to the heedless; even if that final explosion of wings in the brush is as natural as it sounds, Fanshawe will never again take for granted a truly dead past, nor his own right to pick through it as though it had no say in the matter. Taciturn except when essentially summarizing the original James, Burke avoids infodump through little more than the implication that Patten keeps as much to himself as he relates, while Torrens in tweed plus-fours and a total indifference to intellectual pursuits more than occasionally suggests a sort of rusticated Bertie Wooster, making his odd expression of insight or concern worth taking note of. Linnell as the fatally inventive Baxter is a shadowy cameo with a spectral chaser, but his absorbed, owlish face gives him a weird sympathy, as if it never did occur to him how far out of reason he had reached into history. "Always had some project on the go or something. And pretty much the last job he did was finishing off those glasses you took." It is characteristic of James as an unsettler of landscapes and smart of the teleplay not to tamper with his decision to make the danger of their use entirely homegrown. Who needs the exoticism of a mummy's curse when the hard times of old England are still buried so shallowly?

I seem to have blown the timing by watching this ghost story for the solstice rather than Christmas, but it's readily available including on the Internet Archive and it suited a longest night as well as somewhat unexpectedly my own interests. I might have trimmed a few seconds of its woodland, but not its attention to the unobjectified dead. With all his acknowledged influence from James, I can't believe John Bellairs never inflicted a pair of haunted binoculars on one of his series protagonists—a dead man's likeness transferred through his stolen eyes is close but no necromantic banana. This project brought to you by my last backers at Patreon.

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